Self-Reflection

During treatment, one way that I tried to add some intention to my daily routine was to start reading more. I was hoping it would become a habit that stuck, but as I got back to the grind of life and working, I certainly fell off.

A couple weeks back, I was randomly watching a YouTube video, and the blogger referenced “The Mountain is You”. I remember attempting to read that during my treatment, but for some reason I struggled to get into it. But I decided to give it another try and I am so glad I did. Maybe at the time nearly a year ago I just wanted ready, but what a powerful read.

Personally, it helped me identify that on many occasions, the mountain really is us. I’ve struggled with a lot of imposter syndrome, and thinking that I have to be perfect. No one or no thing is perfect, we are far from it, and that is ok and the beauty of life and being human. How else will be learn, grow and improve? My cancer journey showed me the hard way that nothing is perfect, life if going to life and you have to roll with it. But I think having finished treatment, I might have feel back into that old perfectionism.

Like a lightbulb going off, this book is helping me to better understand that some of the coping mechanisms we developed to protect our inner child, are holding us back from the lives we truly want to live. We remain in this state of fear of the unknown, something that I have been guilty off. As part of my wellness journey, I commit to letting go of those behaviors that are holding me back, but also ensuring that I allow myself to learn how to express my feelings, both good and bad. Only then can we truly heal and move forward.

I’m so glad I gave that book a chance, and highly recommend it to anyone else on a journey of self-reflection and improvement. So much emotion and feelings bottled up and enabling you to stay stuck in situations that are not serving you. But it certainly starts with you.